Sarah and her spawn (I have to quit using that word. I know she’ll find out) baby are at the hospital at some Mommy group. I think Sarah will be the only one to show up. The rest of the babies are probably afraid of Lilah.
I have an hour of peace and quiet. I’m alone. I can actually hear the birds in the trees. They seem to disappear when Lilah is around. In a minute I’m going to search her room and find the wand. You know, the magic one. I know it’s up there somewhere. I figure if I can get hold of it I can destroy it.
I found pizza crumbs in her bassinet this morning. It must mean something. I’m too tired now to figure out what. I did look up sleep deprivation. Sleep is so important to our overall health that total sleep deprivation has proved to be fatal: lab rats denied the chance to rest die within two to three weeks. Insufficient rest can also cause people to have hallucinations. This means something but I’m not sure what.
I keep wondering what her plans are for me. She’s locked the filing cabinet so I can’t get in. I know her hitlist is in there.
I checked her bookcase. You should see the books she’s reading. She seems to have a lot of books by a Mother other than her own, last name of Goose. What a STRANGE NAME. i’D CHANGE IT IF IT WERE ME. oH, MY CAPS lock mysteriously turns itself on and off. So many strange things happening. I must keep my guard up. She has another book called “Rosemary’s Baby”. Who is Rosemary? I must find out.
Oh, and when I do sleep for a few minutes the nightmares hit. I dreamed that hell was playing the game Candyland for eternity. I must right write a note to myself. Never buy that game for Lilah. I had another nightmare. I dream I’m Kate Gosselin ( you know, that TV reality show with the mom who has twins and sextuplets).. I dreamed there were 6 of Lilah.
I have to go pick them up at the hospital now. I’d better hurry. I don’t think Lilah likes tardiness.
update 2:01 AM
The only sound I can hear is that blood curdling scream. I changed her diaper. I fed her a bottle (freshly pumped). I burped her. Proof of burping on my shirt. I even sang her a lullaby. Maybe that’s what made her scream.
I’m running out of options. I guess we’ll watch a movie. I hope she picks something I like.
My eyes are closing NEED SLEEP……………..
The proof is in the photo. She’s wearing black and look at the strange sign on her shirt. Memo: find out about the sign.
I think I just need some PEACE!!!!!