I had to go to a funeral today. It was for a baby who only lived a few hours. It was very sad because the mom and dad are my daughter’s closest friends and mine too.
I also found out my son is now homeless in Buffalo with a broken down car, no money and no more girlfriend.
I’m going to take a day or two off from blogging but I will be back. I need to put my head back together again.
I feel like Humpty Dumpty today.
- Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.
- Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
- All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
- Couldn’t put Humpty together again.
I guess I just have to put myself back together and I will because no one else can do it for me.
Whatever I think 
Sep 01, 2008 @ 23:46:24
Oh, Joan – I think you had mentioned the baby – this is such a sad occasion. I am glad that their family has your family for such good friends. They certainly could use you now.
It’s also sad for you about your son right now. I hope this is just a little bump on his road to better things. You stay strong and put yourself back together – it is true that nobody else can do it for you. And the same is true for your son.
Regardless, I’m sending good thoughts and energy your way and your son’s way. Please take care. Love and hugs to you.
Sep 01, 2008 @ 23:53:59
*big tight hugs*
Love you, girl.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 00:08:08
More hugs for you here, Joan. More good thoughts and energy too. Take care. (((hugs)))
Sep 02, 2008 @ 01:01:43
I’m so sorry to hear this 😦
I hope everything gets better for you and your son. I’ll keep you in my thoughts.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 06:24:53
Oh Joan, I am so sorry to hear this news, both about the baby and about Damon.
(((Hugs)))
Sep 02, 2008 @ 06:56:25
Loving thoughts and prayers coming your way Joan and strength and calm for both families. So sorry to hear this sad news.
All the kings horses and all the kings men waited for Humptey with bandages and loads of love supplies.
Love to Damon and many more hours of peaceful Salmon fishing in the very not to distant future you’ll see. Dose Pesky Boys – Smiling. You gotta love em aven’t you.
~~ (( XX JOAN XX )) ~~
Waiting for your return with the love supplies and hugs.
Di X
Sep 02, 2008 @ 07:06:14
So sorry to hear about that baby, and about your own baby. I am sending you virtual hugs and positive vibes. You just take care of yourself, okay? You can’t fix everybody else, as much as you want to.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 09:25:12
hey hugs from “double J” here…take care of yourself and please check in and let us know you are all right. I’m gonna miss dumbass videos so please dont’ stay away too long!
Sep 02, 2008 @ 10:25:11
Hugs, my dear. Heartfelt energy and egg-shell-fixing thoughts being sent your way.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 11:23:45
Sorry to hear of all of your sadness. Go grab a sandwich and park your butt on the beach for a while.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 11:26:36
Oh Joan, I’m so sorry to hear about both things. I’ll be thinking positive thoughts and send them your way. Take your time but we miss you. I’m with Just A Mom, go sit at the beach. The water and waves coming in and out might help calm you. I’m praying for Damon.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 15:25:45
I’m sending love and good karma your way! Keep good thoughts.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 18:48:48
That’s a real double wammy for you, eh Joan.
Good on you for allowing yourself some time away from the blog for some self care.
Will be thinking of you. Don’t rush back – remember ‘it is just a blog’ and will still be there when you feel ready to pick it up again.
Take care xxxxxx
Sep 02, 2008 @ 19:01:33
more tight {{{hugs}}} from me joan, and i’ll keep you in my prayers!
Sep 02, 2008 @ 20:33:14
Lots of love and hugs Joan. Sometimes life is big and sad and scary. Take care of yourself.
Sep 02, 2008 @ 20:50:05
((((Joan)))) I am so sorry to hear this. I know there is nothing I can say to make any difference. But I’ll keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.
((((hugs))))
Sep 02, 2008 @ 20:56:09
Joanie, I’m sorry about that. You must be really sad, this I have to say: These too, shall pass.
Hugs to you!
Sep 02, 2008 @ 22:04:38
When I worry about my kids I get no enjoyment from anything, so I certainly understand why you won’t be blogging. Please don’t feel compelled to reply to those who are commenting here, everyone just wants you to know that they’re thinking about you. I wish your son would just sell his broken down car, get a ticket on a bus or a train, and hightail it out of Buffalo! I’ve always called it the armpit of America (where I live comes in at a close second so don’t anyone be offended by that comment, please). The fact that he has a 6 pack license is so in his favor and they are not easy to get! Hans just got his this summer and everyone warned him that he probably wouldn’t pass the test. Damon should be able to get a job just about anywhere near the water and I hope he gets himself straightened around soon for himself and for you!! Moms shouldn’t have to worry so much about their kids!
Sep 03, 2008 @ 01:35:40
Sending you some loving suppiles Joans of Mums.I’m hoping your feeling a little better soon and more Joanie to be able to get your head around whats happened in both situations.
Red Cross package is in the sky for you darling. Just look at the stars or the sunshine and breathe and know Yes ! so hard now but God will only give you what you can handle.
You shouldn’t be so bloody brilliant Joans Of Mum. God thinks your brilliant Joan Oh ! Tears – He’s just asking you to serve him a little AGAIN.
When does it stop. ????? Can HE not ask some-one elese. I’m so sorry. If there’s anything I can do alongside God please don’t hesistate to contact me will you. I don’t know what I can do but I’m here.
There’s always different options for Damon. Thank God he heasn’t been in Buffloe to long, ( get him to get himself out of there, before he gets to stuck )He’s got the beauty of Alaska in his heart and the peace and freedom he felt there. He got his spirit back there.
Loving you Joans of Mums. WE all love you and God loves you the most. Hey !! God ! No you don’t – I do. Smiling.
Di. XX
PS. I have loads of faith in Damon. I’ve seen his pictures and fellt his spirit and yours to darling. I know I kick off about NA and AA and my own ways I’ve recovered, but I would suggest……
Maybe a meeting or two.
Sep 03, 2008 @ 03:07:19
Too much at once, sweet Joan. Many good and healing thoughts are sent your way. {{hugs}}
Sep 03, 2008 @ 03:23:22
Aw!! Joan. Check this out.
You’ll see I have been stalking you with love this morning Yes ! Well on one your posts a quest speaker post for Moonbeanmqueen ( Never met her before ) on depression I left a comment and said I was quiet drained due to the recent writing and sharing of a situation I have going on.
Your post and my comment got me to googling images of lack of energy in Google. So I dance my tap and tapped it in. Lack Of Energy Images.
Well we know that millions and yillions and maybe trillians of people use the internet don’t we and post stuff – just like us.
Check this out darling Joan.
I see a picture of a lady. An old fashioned lady and I love it. She looks stressed and tired. I thought that will do for me for my next post. I click and see the picture and read the post which got me to reading the next post.
Law and behold who’s there. Moonbeanmcqueen herself. I couldn’t believe it. Your post on Depression as quest speaker on her site which in on your site under depression, brought me to wanting to look for a picture for my next post.
OMG !! Such a small World.
http://images.google.co.uk/imgres?imgurl=http://fibromyowgia.files.wordpress.com/
God truly does guide us doesn’t He. Or somert happens somehow and I’m feeling pretty freeked here.
Who’s Moonbeammqueen. I need to find her now. Looks like somerts guiding me to her. I hope all is okey Joan. Hope I haven’t freeked you out.
Love
Di
Sep 03, 2008 @ 04:04:19
Oh shit. This is bad. I’m so sorry. Firstly, so sorry for the loss of your friends baby. I cannot even imagine and I’m sending you all a big cyber hug! I wish I were there to hug you my friend.
And, my heart sunk when I read about your son. I know how this situation is at your core first and foremost; the love and concern for him. I will pray, pray, pray for your friend, for you and your whole family during this really hard time Joan.
Peace to you.
Sep 03, 2008 @ 12:16:08
Been here and read before but never commented till today. I’m sorry to read what you’re having to deal with today. You have my sympathies and prayers.
Sep 03, 2008 @ 13:48:05
I am so sorry, for both your friends and yourself. I hope your son will find himself again, and going to a childs funeral is the worst thing I have ever had to go through myself … I can imagine what you feel like right now.
Sep 03, 2008 @ 21:19:59
I’m so sorry Joan. (((Hugs)))
My thoughts are with your friends who lost their baby. Life can be so incredibly unfair sometimes.
My thoughts are also with your son as he tries to find his way in the world.
An most importantly my thoughts are with you. (((hugs)))
Sep 03, 2008 @ 22:59:41
I’m a little late arriving here but I am so sorry to hear about that poor baby, and I sincerely hope things improve with your son. Yes sometimes you need to take a little time to be with yourself and your thoughts, and by your latest post it looks like you’re back, so I hope the time helped!
*hugs*